Feeling it today....starting to feel the bruises on my body.
I had a dream 3 months ago, it was 2 weeks after my bf disclosed to me, I dreamt that I was covered in bruises, it's poetic don't you think? Poetic, because although I have no real understanding of CSA, I am human and I LOVE, I love mostly unconditionally. So when you hurt, I hurt.
This must be the reason I cry, while we are intimate. I cry for you and for me. I don't like it. Not so long ago I remember crying because I was so overwhelmed by "OUR" moment. It was joyful and beautiful to feel such love, I did at that time feel soooo much love, and peacefulness.
Now it's hurting me, ONE of the many things that was truly beautiful between us.
means selfless love of one person for another
without sexual implications
(especially love that is spiritual in nature)