i am in love with someone who doesn't really exist
he was everything i ever wanted
he made me believe we would be together
now i'm still in love with this "invisible man"
i can't touch him, hear him or see him
i compare everyone to him
it makes it almost impossible to move on
he still torments me even though he isn't with me..in my dreams at night and in my day dreams
but, he can't exist can he? he has to be a figment of my imagination
i always think theres some sliver of hope left
hope that the man of my dreams will be real one day
maybe that person doesn't exist and i'll be waiting forever
maybe

Have you thought about going to see him??? I know he tried to go see you and couldn't do it - would it be easier if you went to him??

We are a hard case to love, and to put up with, I think I know this as well as anyone.

If he is anything like me, I can assure you that he is not without guilt. MUCH guilt. The thing is, the experiences we have faced, leave us feeling so small and insignificant that we hold little belief that we can be of any use to anyone, much less, have the power to make someone feel better when they are in such pain.

It is the emotional robbery that hurts me more than anything. The feeling of being hollow, or empty, is one that makes me feel useless and powerless to be of any use to anyone. To see someone show so much emotion, and to know that we seem to have so little is overpowering.

If you've read any of my previous posts, you will know that you, and he, are not alone in this suffering.

I wish I had something to say that could really help, but I'm still trying to figure it all out for myself too.

Best wishes and warmest regards to you both,
I truly wish for you to find happiness, I'm sure you both deserve it.

Scott

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