today i feel like crap, its my birthday and i got a card from my mum, i'm so angry with her i through it strait in the bin, i got nothing from my day to be honest i dont really care! i had a shit nights sleep again i keep having nightmare about the abuse i got when i was younger, today i learned that i was 10 years when the sexual abuse took place, does that mean the because i was older that i should have known better? i also found out that my older brother suffered the same abuse when he was younger too, i dont know why i felt anger towards him, maybe because he was older and should have protected me more, but then i think about why i kept quiet and start to feel guilty, i,ve taken steps to see a therapist so hopefully this will help me. thanks for listning again guys.

Wow, really hear your pain and anger. Glad your here and that your ready to start the healing process. Lots of good information and support here. Just do lots of learning and listening now, be sure to get in touch with all that you feel and working with a t should be real helpful.

let us be here for you and the best of luck as you move forward. Your starting a journey to undo some of what was done, it will make a huge difference in your life