Bobby... I sit here crying after reading what you wrote... what an amazing question... I so often have asked my self "why"... but, what you have said rings so true. I work with children... have worked with them for 20 years... babies to teenagers, and I will never be able to look in their sweet, trusting faces again without thinking "how?". Larry is right, the answer would never make sense... but the question is so important.
"You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."