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#178043 - 09/03/07 04:35 PM did i
nicky Offline
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Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
Did i ever say this didnt hurt?
Did i ever tell you that i felt lonely and scared?
Probally not for fear of rejection...
Did i ever tell you i was attracted as hell to you?
Now it makes me sick....
Did i ever listen to you, really listen to you?
I feel deaf even to my own words...
Did i ever tell you i loved you so damn much?
I do..
Why did i say i didnt cry?
When the rain is pouring in my heart...
Did i ask for this?
Maybe i did then again maybe i didnt...
Did i tell you that im good real good at pushing people away?
so scared to be alone...
Did i tell you that trust is a huge issue for me?
To tell you i guess i would have to trust you.....right?
Did i tell you that i felt like a rotten friend?
Who deserves to feel alone and lost...
Did i ever say i wish this would all end?
Well i meant it.....
Did i ever tell you that i dont feel safe at all?
Im jumpy and scared, lost in my own skin...
Did i ever tell you that i feel like noone cares about me?
Forever stuck with this feeling...
Did i ever mention that i wasnt worth it?
Am i? I dont think i am...
Did i tell you that i feel lost?
As if i walked off the healing path..misfooted somewheres...
Have i told you that i feel smothered?
To the point breathing is not a necessity now but a choice...
Is it possible to tell that i am not in the right state of mind right now?
Im not...
Did i ever admit that i am insecure?
Very much so i am...
Did i ever tell you that i wish i was a child again?
A life rewinded i wish were possible...
Did i tell you that i was losing faith?
Losing myself in this race...
Did i tell you how f*cked up i really am?
I probly have...
Did i tell you that my mind is spinning and doing somersaults?
I am in a daze...
Have i told you.....?
Did i ever.......?
Can you imagine if i did.....?

_________________________
i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#178527 - 09/05/07 11:20 PM Re: did i *DELETED* [Re: nicky]
nicky Offline
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Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
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_________________________
i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#178572 - 09/06/07 07:50 AM Re: did i [Re: nicky]
sunshine70 Offline
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Registered: 08/29/07
Posts: 51
Loc: florida
It's becoming more evident
Much more obvious to me
I thought much more of you
Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake
Letting myself think you cared
Was I just your marionette
With heart strings open and bared

With me left here still thinking
What was false, what was true
So puzzling and so complex
Iím left to await another clue

On my heart strings you played
Each left with a loving memory
Yet I still have those questions
Do you ever think about me

Iím wondering why all the intrigue
Now why all of this mystery
Why am I left here hanging
Your the one that holds the key.

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