Are you able to speak freely and honestly about your feelings when you see your T - for example, as you do in your posts here? You really have been flooded in recent days and personally I think your T or doctor ought to prescribe some medication to restore a sense of balance for awhile. We often get overwhelmed, and when we do the best thing for us is to ask for the help we need and then follow whatever recommendations we get.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)