I apologize for being blunt, but I think you are asking too much from God. He can't make your decisions for you, and unfortunately, He didn't make the decisions for the person(s) who hurt you either. He didn't cause your hurt, and He is not responsible for stopping it. It sucks to say, but your hurt was caused by the free will He bestowed upon all men. The responsibilities lie with the person(s) who hurt you. You've used your free will well. Unfortunately, most people don't.
I want to stray away from talking about faith here, because I'm kind of a hypocrate for preaching faith when I don't have any, nor do I desire any, myself.
You did what you had to do in order to survive. I see you here on this board with an insatiable desire to help others, and I have seen in some of your posts an insatiable desire to protect children. These are all products of free will, and it seems to me that you are constantly making the right decisions. These are YOUR choices. If I was God, I'd let you into heaven in a heartbeat.
But I'm obviously not God, so we are both stuck in the same dilemma. The book of James chapter 2 has a lot to say about how faith alone cannot get someone into heavan, and that faith must be accompanied by works in order for that to happen. I have to ask, does it say anywhere in the Bible that works alone can get one into heaven without being accompanied by faith?
I guess I refuse to believe that an all powerful God could be that petty.
heaven is growing up normal ,
I really can't argue with this. As much as I want to try to reassure you, this one sentence just rings a little too close to home. I can only hope that, if there is a God, he makes certain allowances for guys like us who have had to endure shit like this in our lives.