I have had a very hard time dealing with my feelings for alexander lately... and he has now passed away I am unable to comprehend whats going on in my head right now.. A few days ago I turned to a very special lady in my life named Jessica. She was my councellor in High School and the only adult who I trust right now.
Like me I thought others might have a hard time finding what to say so maybe these outside words can help:
As hard as it will be for you to say goodbye or let him go, it is important to remember what is best for him. He is probably in quite a bit of pain, and he will be going to a pain free place where he will be free. The impact people have on our lives can happen in a minute...some people are in our lives for a lifetime, others are in it for only a short time...it's not the amount of time that matters but what they offered to our lives and what we offered to theres. I know it will be very hard to let him go, but remember that memories last forever and so does the impact that someone has had.
He was in a lot of pain near the end... I hope its true that he is in a better place.. although I am directing these words towards Alexanders cause I think they can be thought about in other situations as well. Alexander was not just a survivor to me he was a friend one who shared the background of being a survivor like me and not only that but he shared a similar age to me in common something I never seem to be able to find very often..
I feel this is an example of something in the moment the now and something we currently must survive and as a tribute to Alexander because he was always there to listen and talk his will to survive has been placed in the survivor forum because he would want everyone to keep surviving and healing.
Edited by Aidanchase (08/20/07 06:27 AM)