So many of us go through this stage where our emotions seem to be utterly out of control. Part of the reason is that we have spent so much time emotionally closed down that dealing with feelings again is a genuine challenge.
Another is that once we let go and allow ourselves to feel again, we get hit by what I told my T felt like an emotional hurricane. She asked me one day what feelings I could identify, and you know, I couldn't name a single one for certain. All I knew was that I was getting hit from every side at once.
All these feelings need to be processed one way or another,and as for what to do, I guess the answer is do what works. In my case talking about things helps a lot, and I also benefited by writing down everything I could remember about the bad times as a kind of long survivor story. I know journaling also helps some guys.
I think these things all help because they give us back some sense of control - that feeling that while things may be rough, we are not helpless and powerless as we face them
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)