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#173387 - 08/15/07 08:25 AM picture
Trevor Offline
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Registered: 06/05/06
Posts: 778
Loc: Rhode Island
i found a pic of me wen i
was a kid an i hate it i look so
stupid an ugly an i dont no
how anybody could look at
me then an not see that sumething was
up i mean i lookd at it an my
first thot was wat the fuk is
wrong w that kid
i look so, i dunno, lost an sad
and so fucking stupid. i was
thinkin of putting it here instead
of taz but i feel like vryone would
look and say omg look at that dumb
littl fucker

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#173393 - 08/15/07 09:25 AM Re: picture [Re: Trevor]
jessedawg Offline
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Registered: 07/17/07
Posts: 345
Loc: New York
Trevor don't be so hard on yourself, i havent been here long but long enough to know that no one here would look at your picture and say "omg look at that dumb littl fucker"

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#173395 - 08/15/07 09:31 AM Re: picture [Re: jessedawg]
Trevor Offline
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Registered: 06/05/06
Posts: 778
Loc: Rhode Island
eze for u to say
u havent seen it

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#173399 - 08/15/07 09:42 AM Re: picture [Re: Trevor]
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Loc: Carlisle, PA
Trev,

Jesse is right. No one here gets mocked for their photos. But yes, so many times we look at our own photos and we don't like what we see. That's because, as you yourself say, we know what was happening and we wonder how can it be that no one noticed?

Sometimes a photo can trouble us because it makes us remember the bad times. But in the photo itself what is there? Just a pretty cool kid who deserved LOTS better than he got.

Much love,
Larry

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#173401 - 08/15/07 09:45 AM Re: picture [Re: roadrunner]
Trevor Offline
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Registered: 06/05/06
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Loc: Rhode Island
i hate it and i hate him and i
wish he fucking died

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#173404 - 08/15/07 09:49 AM Re: picture [Re: Trevor]
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Registered: 11/03/05
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I felt that way a lot. One day, when I was around 15 or so, I took almost every single picture of myself out of every photo album I could find and destroyed it. Most of the pictures of myself as a kid that I have now, were given to me by relatives - I'm grateful they had some left.

I see value in him now, where I didn't see it before.



Edited by melliferal (08/15/07 09:50 AM)
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#173405 - 08/15/07 09:50 AM Re: picture [Re: Trevor]
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Loc: Carlisle, PA
Can you talk about why you hate him? Like I said, I bet others would see a pretty cool kid in that photo.

L.

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#173407 - 08/15/07 09:54 AM Re: picture [Re: roadrunner]
Trevor Offline
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Registered: 06/05/06
Posts: 778
Loc: Rhode Island
hate him cuz he caused evrything
bad to happen
hes stupid
hes ugly
hes NOTHING
an a lot of othr reasns to

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#173412 - 08/15/07 11:02 AM Re: picture [Re: melliferal]
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Registered: 08/13/07
Posts: 346
Originally Posted By: melliferal
I felt that way a lot. One day, when I was around 15 or so, I took almost every single picture of myself out of every photo album I could find and destroyed it. Most of the pictures of myself as a kid that I have now, were given to me by relatives - I'm grateful they had some left.

I see value in him now, where I didn't see it before.

I did the same thing you did for about 3 months ago. And I'm not sorry for that.

I know what you mean, Trevor. I'm new in here but this thing that happened in my life made a so deep whole inside of me that I can't stand to look at myself. The "me" I see on the mirrors or in the pictures is the same "me" that let all of that happen. The same "me" that was unable to fight. The same filthy "me".

But you're not the same little kid that was assaulted in the past. That "you" remains only in your past and not in your pictures. I know that pictures seems like they have the essence of us, but they don't. I keep saying myself the same thing everytime sb asks me to take a picture from myself. I feel ugly even though people around me says I'm not.

Keep in your mind that others don't feel the same way about our image like ourselves. I don't think anyone in here would judge you by your picture also by the fact that no one here is inside of you. Don't worry about that.

Peace,
J.

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Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by
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#173415 - 08/15/07 11:27 AM Re: picture [Re: user2007]
Trevor Offline
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Registered: 06/05/06
Posts: 778
Loc: Rhode Island
k well i gess i dont realy care that
much about wat othr ppl think or say
cuz fuck them. its more like im mad
at him. wen i look at the picture.
its hard to xplain

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