I can certainly relate to the "sick' feeling associated with abuse.
I find myself wishing that everyone else didn't have to be here either, but you know what they say about wishing in one hand, and.......I'm sure you've heard it before.
Wishing is great, but when it comes right down to it, we have to deal with reality. The reality that there are "sick" people in this world who do "sick" things.
That is what I choose to feel "sick" about. Not this place, not the people here, but the "sick" animals that cause anyone to be in a place like this to begin with.
The reality is, we can continue to go through life wounded, and choose to do nothing, or we can make the choice to seek out and make use of every possible tool, or chance, to have a happier more fulfilling life from today forward.
I understand the frustration you feel, I feel it to, but in the end, we have to do what we can to take care of ourselves. We need to be able to help ourselves, to have any hope of ever being able to really help anyone else.
That is what brought me here, and that is what is keeping me here too.
Best wishes and warmest regards,
I'm here for a reason. Failure is not an option.