Oh my friend, I completely understand. The pit inside seems so deep, you just can't climb out of it, but know there is hope. Corny line, but "the sun will come out tomorrow." To offen I feel like I'm standing in a crowded room amoung people I have known all my life, but none of them truly know me, the true me. Keep the hope, take time do something special for yourself, don't think about anything or anyone else, but doing something just for you. ENJOY THE MOMENT FOR YOURSELF!
Good luck and thank you for sharing!
All my best!!!
I hug myself daily until the day I find the embrace that completes me.