Welcome to MaleSurvivor. I love your avatar, Buddy! Totally awesome!
You may consider yourself to be a f***up. I understand that. I've been there. I'll make you a deal. I'll believe in your worth and value for you if that's OK. You just talk to us as you can. Tell us how much it hurts. Tell us your frustrations. Even tell us if you have trouble liking yourself. Myself, Larry, Andy, Dwayne, Bryan, and so may others will offer an understanding ear, a helping hand, and most of all we'll like you for who you are. We'll value you and the very cool things that are a part of you that you may not even realize you have. Is that OK?
Lots of love,
“Life’s journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting ‘Holy ____…! What a ride!’” ~Hunter S. Thompson