Thanks for your PM and welcome to Male Survivor. I'm really glad you found us, and I know you will get a lot of support and understanding here. You aren't a fuck-up, by the way, though we often think of ourselves that way. You are a guy who is trying to cope with some terrible things that were done to you. It's a brave thing you are doing here, and I hope you feel comfortable in our community here.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)