i give up yeah not gonna do anything silly but hell i have no idea wass wrong with me i am the most depressed person on the human planet and i will be like that for the next two decades and it will never change and thats the truth.

You can change, it isn't easey but with hard work things do get better. Never give up.


Tom

You are feeling down (very down) right now. We all go through times like this in our lives. Realize there are people that care about you! You are not alone. You will have better days.

Scotia

What is it that you want to change? Are your goals unrealistic? (I don't think so).

Would you.........care to elaborate a little more about your situation?

Keep in mind, it's perfectly ok to say "fuck it" once in a while.

i am so depressed that i just freak out in public and well i have lost the ability to walk properly...i have no idea where i am going.My mind has lost touch with my body.I am already dead.

no. that's my title. you can be the second most depressed if you want. for over 30 years i've started and stopped and started and stopped. what kind of idiot can't make up his mind?

my point is, you're not alone in that boat. it's just so foggy sometimes we can't tell there are others around.

M

My AA sponsor (I'm just sober again 41 days), who is also a sexual abuse survivor, suggests that when I believe that I am never going to recover from alcoholism or sexual abuse - which I have been trying to do, off and on, for about 17 years - it is my ego at work. Just as some people have over-blown, boastful senses of themselves (and are just as insecure as me), I tend to think that my life is unworthy and that I am lower than a snake in a rut.

How presumptuous, and egotistical, is that??

Kenn in Toronto, Canada (clinging to hope)

Anyway,

Just try to focus on the little things for now - one day at a time. We will talk again soon, okay? I have been up to my eyes in stuff this week, but I get back to sunny Oxfordshire tomorrow. Yay! Let's talk soon.

Much love,
Larry

Well, anyway,

At least I can say that you did come here to let us know what is going on with you in brief. So, there must be something positive going on.

It sounds like you should go to see your doctor and let him know what is going on, too.

The thing of it is, I can kind of relate to the way you are feeling, and it's not pleasant (been there). Get some help in your corner. It's time for round 2. - Ding!

God bless,
John

Hi................Anyway--------------------i have been dead--------------------before---------------trouble walking---------------mind just freaking out-----------------for me i was overwhelmed------------------with so much stuff--------------at once----------------------got to break it down----------------a little at a time---------------------------and telling myself----------------i am ok-----------i will be ok-----------i did nothing wrong--------------------over and over and over-------------steve

A piece of advice?

Ok -- give up if you wish. But whatever you do, do not indulge in depression. Keep active. Enjoy life, it has alot to offer.

If you give up, then I guess you don't have to remember your abuse. What's the point?!?

Just be pure from now, and take it from the start. No guilt, no shame.

I believe this is the attitude you have to take to this.

For some reason, there are evil things on this earth. Tests to be endured, hardship suffered.

But the proper reaction to adversity is not saying -- you are right I should die, but to face it head on and to overcome it.

I bless you to have inner strength to overcome your hardship and to be a shining light.