Adam, I know exactly what you are talking about here. Am in kind of a similar position right now and do not know how to handle it. I know I am going to get hurt and should break all contact but every time I reply and think "what if...". The danger signs are there, the hurt is back, the emotions are back and yet...

So I dont have advice for you, just know again you are not alone in your struggle. When I find the answer myself I will let you know :-)

thnks everybdy for helping, adam

Adam,



You have already received some great feedback on this, so I'll just note that what you say here is what makes it possible for toxic people to continue to harm us. They need for you to remain hopeful; they love to watch you twist in the wind after they slam you with a new body blow. If you turn your back on them the game's up. There's no victim anymore, no one to brutalize. It ends.

I have toxic relatives of my own, and when I turned my back on them some years ago, yes, it felt awful and it seemed like I was the bad guy. I wasn't. I was just acting to protect myself and refusing to be a victim any longer. I told myself, okay, I will just fade out of their lives and not be nasty about this; if they want contact with me they can seek it, but on my terms. But they never got in touch! I wonder if they even notice that I am no longer in their lives.

But the point is that I acted for my own welfare. If you can, Adam, I think you should do the same. If there is ever that desire to apologize and mend things, it can be expressed to you through a neutral friend or relative and an unopened letter isn't going to obstruct that.

But I think you already know what I knew, but was hesitant to admit, when I broke off contact: that letter is never going to come.

Much love,
Larry

i do understand and i thank you for your honesty, some day maybe i''ll hate them enough to not love them anymore.

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Like Robbie, I kinda wish I knew where the MoFo lived.

I'm so sorry that you have to ecen think about this. Adam.

It brings me so much pain to hear such inhumane treatment of someone so innocent and deserving of love.

But, right now that Pain has been changed to anger and...maybe I should so no more it would probly be of no benafit to anyone here.

I have trained myself in every way I can think of: to help and save people and on the flipside can equelly destroy the human monsters that are not deserving of any sympathy or pardon for their inexcusable crimes to the innocent. For I concider myself a humanitarian. But, a part of me does not share that comassion for some, those tht's only purpose is to injure and negate the innocent, for I invest no love, no compasson or sympathy for them. In my opinion, they should not as equall with the rest of society, and should reap the same actions tha they placeupon others for they are caustic to society as a whole and should be stoped, these troglidits in humane for, in they rain upon those they feed. I have often thought of donating my life to such a cause of fighting back for the greater good.
May they, get what they deserve!!!!!!!!!!! Some one has to stand agaist them and fight back for all of us. For their rain of terror must be stoped!!

-Logan

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Like Robbie, I kinda wish I knew where the MoFo lived.

I'm so sorry that you have to ecen think about this. Adam.

It brings me so much pain to hear such inhumane treatment of someone so innocent and deserving of love.

But, right now that Pain has been changed to anger and...maybe I should so no more it would probly be of no benafit to anyone here.

I have trained myself in every way I can think of: to help and save people and on the flipside can equelly destroy the human monsters that are not deserving of any sympathy or pardon for their inexcusable crimes to the innocent. For I concider myself a humanitarian. But, a part of me does not share that comassion for some, those tht's only purpose is to injure and negate the innocent, for I invest no love, no compasson or sympathy for them. In my opinion, they should be not be considered as equall with the rest of society, and should reap the same actions that they place upon others for they are caustic to society as a whole and should be stoped, these trogledites in humane for, in their rain upon those they feed. I have often thought of donating my life to such a cause of fighting back for the greater good.
May they, get what they deserve!!!!!!!!!!! Some one has to stand agaist them and fight back for all of us. For their rain of terror must be stoped!! If things don''t head up for me, may I become the one to stop them.

-Logan

This post may be deleted.
Like Robbie, I kinda wish I knew where the MoFo lived.

I'm so sorry that you have to ecen think about this. Adam.

It brings me so much pain to hear such inhumane treatment of someone so innocent and deserving of love.

But, right now that Pain has been changed to anger and...maybe I should so no more it would probly be of no benafit to anyone here.

I have trained myself in every way I can think of: to help and save people and on the flipside can equelly destroy the human monsters that are not deserving of any sympathy or pardon for their inexcusable crimes to the innocent. For I concider myself a humanitarian. But, a part of me does not share that comassion for some, those tht's only purpose is to injure and negate the innocent, for I invest no love, no compasson or sympathy for them. In my opinion, they should be not be considered as equall with the rest of society, and should reap the same actions that they place upon others for they are caustic to society as a whole and should be stoped, these trogledites in humane for, in their rain upon those they feed. I have often thought of donating my life to such a cause of fighting back for the greater good.
May they, get what they deserve!!!!!!!!!!! Some one has to stand agaist them and fight back for all of us. For their rain of terror must be stoped!! If things don''t head up for me, may I become the one to stop them.

-Logan