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#167100 - 07/17/07 03:04 AM Hate
Cidnie Offline
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Registered: 07/09/07
Posts: 113
Loc: SFC, CA
This is far more abstract than most of my stuff...was having a particularly bad day. For the record, this has nothing to do with suicidal tendencies. I've never considered suicide, and I never will.

All of this has made me hate you
I hate
What you make me do
I hate
How you make me feel
But most of all
I hate
That I canít deal

Let go
Back off
Step down
This isnít a joke
Itís all ruined
Iím gonna choke
On tears
On anger
On spite
On life

Hate me
Leave me
Kill me
This isnít for fun
Itís all over
Iím gonna run

You tell me to be strong
To get over it
That itíll be ok
But youíre all wrong
Youíre not me
Iíve gone astray

Let go
Back off
Step down
This isnít a joke
Itís all ruined
Iím gonna choke
On tears
On anger
On spite
On life

Hate me
Leave me
Kill me
This isnít for fun
Itís all over
Iím gonna run

I hate my life
I hate it all
I hate this feeling
Of being raw
Itís all over
Itís at the end
I can no longer pretend
Goodbye
Hate
Fear
Life
love

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There is nothing natural about maturity in the physically immature. Maturity comes with wisdom, and wisdom comes with pain. Those of us with the greatest minds have endured the greatest torments.

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#167103 - 07/17/07 03:09 AM Re: Hate [Re: Cidnie]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Cidnie,

Originally Posted By: Cidnie
I hate my life
I hate it all
I hate this feeling
Of being raw


Another good one, bro. I remember hating the feeling that emotionally I had just had all my skin peeled off me. I felt like I wanted to crawl out of my shirt even.

I just wish we could hear the music you have in mind for these songs.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#167108 - 07/17/07 03:16 AM Re: Hate [Re: roadrunner]
Cidnie Offline
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Registered: 07/09/07
Posts: 113
Loc: SFC, CA
I do have a lot of my music recorded and such, not the ones I've posted thus far as I'm posting my much much older stuff first. Haven't shared it because it links to a weird 'fan' site a friend of mine put together for me. Last I heard personal pages were a no no.

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