I'm sorry I didn't know

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I did not know...This was not normal
I did not know....That boys did not do this
I did not know.....That it would affect me so deeply
I did not know......That it was not accepting and including
I did not know.......My body betrayed me
I did not know........I just did not know....No one told me....

Pete

I didn't know to run away.
I didn't know to scream.
I didn't know where everyone was.
I didn't know I should tell.
I didn't know I couldn't get in trouble.
I didn't know it was never my fault.

Kevin

I didn't know I could hate my own skin
I didn't know I was worth a darn thing
I didn't know it would ever end
I didn't know to even try to get out of it
I didn't know it would all come back and bite me like this
I didn't know I was a real boy too...not a space alien
I didn't know what to do

I didn't know anyone would care.

And now you know differently.

Much love,
Larry

I didn't know he lied.
I didn't know his threats weren't real.
I didn't know there were people to help me.
I didn't know other people just saw a boy, not an abused boy.
I didn't know it wasn't my fault.
I didn't know I hadn't asked for it.
I didn't know how to escape the shame.

I didn't know anyone would understand.
I didn't know if my parents would blame me.
I didn't know if my parents would understand.
I didn't know if my friends would believe me.
I didn't know if my friends would stick by me.
I didn't know what other people would think or say.
I didn't know anyone would care.
I didn't know if it was normal, or not.
I didn't know how the persons who hurt me would react.

Jess,

What a way to start out on the site: I saw your registration yesterday and was wondering when you would begin to post. That's a powerful thing you have just done and it shows a lot of courage.

So welcome to the site and I hope it will be able to help you. I guess you can already see you will find a great circle of caring and understanding guys here. Don't feel you need to push yourself - just take care of yourself here and make Jess your first priority. It's good to have you with us.

Much love,
Larry

I,too didn't know....it would essentially ruin my soul

I didn't know.... my life would have such unpredictable circumstances.

I didn't know.... i was being abused although it terrified me

I didn't know.... people would deny it

I didn't know....i could have said something....

I didn't know....so many years later my soul was shattered.

I didn't think/know....i'd get through it.

So this is part of my laundry list of issues i had then and there more glarring today.Although this does not take away from who i am and how loveable iv'e become.

Coopstah