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#164067 - 06/29/07 04:45 PM one I thought up while driving today
knot4sail16 Offline
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Registered: 06/19/07
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Loc: Southeastern U.S.
Sometimes it hits and I just can’t help but think…

What a bastard enigma.
Completely contextless.
Not even a decent plot structure.
No setup and all fall.

Here’s my tragic flaw.

I guess even well-adjusted kids
From good families
Are susceptible to longing for

…Acceptance.




Peace,
Daniel

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#164077 - 06/29/07 06:27 PM Re: one I thought up while driving today [Re: knot4sail16]
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Daniel,

That's not a flaw, is it? All boys long for acceptance and yearn to "fit in" at almost any cost. It's part of growing up when we learn to modify that yearning with considerations of what is good for us and what is right in general. The tragedy is that this yearning is used to exploit so many boys before they can learn how to modify it themselves.

So back to the mantra, my friend: it was NOT your fault.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#164084 - 06/29/07 06:55 PM Re: one I thought up while driving today [Re: roadrunner]
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Yeah, I know. It was more of a reflection today on how I have felt, rather than a currently experienced emotion. I guess I like the ironic. I know that longing for acceptance and belonging is a great thing that I want to nurture and fulfill one day for my own kids. I also know that that is one of the primary ways that abusers prey on kids. I know that was my situation. I just wanted to be "the favorite" cousin.

I was thinking today that it was really a pattern. I have always wanted the acceptance of guys just a few years older than me. I have distanced myself from guys my own age, and I have been chasing that acceptance for so long.

In some ways I realize that I relate more with women as a way of distancing myself from feeling like I can't relate with other guys or live up to their expectations.

Okay, so now I really am feeling those emotions again. I think that's all I can go into for now if I actually want to have a decent evening.

Peace,
Daniel

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