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#160984 - 06/10/07 01:26 PM healing
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Registered: 12/19/03
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Loc: Pasadena, CA
since finding some space for myself -

i'm realizing it is ok - to experience what i experience -

aka FEELING THINGS -

I am stepping back now - and experiencing stuff honestly -

like - if i work out - and walk a mile to the river -

it's ok to rest -

If someone comes at me - with a desire - to connect -

I do NOT have to bend - yet - I can say - if I truly want

to be - with them - I think often I would avoid those - who I even really want to be with for that fear -

of what if - I do have this boyfriend -

we all experience differently - and so -

it's real important to be present to that -
and careful -

anyways - it is a sunny day -

have a fine day

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"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous



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#160990 - 06/10/07 03:24 PM Re: healing [Re: markgreyblue]
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Loc: St. Louis, Missouri
Mark,

I often find myself at a club, hoping to meet someone, but when a person approaches me, I pull back.

I think when they come to me, I feel like they want to use me. I have tried to realize they may just find me attractive, but I feel more comfortable initiating any contact.

It's something we all have to work with, and I'm trying.

I hope I'm healing.

Luv ya,
Carl

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Shawn and Ben will always be in my heart....

Happiness is like peeing your pants; Everyone can see it, but only YOU feel the warmth.

Peebles, Ohio WOR alumni, Oct. 2007

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#160991 - 06/10/07 03:46 PM Re: healing [Re: Scoutvictim]
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actually - even with close contact -

there's that final step of taking a chance

i usualy balk -

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-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous



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#160995 - 06/10/07 04:38 PM Re: healing [Re: markgreyblue]
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Very nicely said!

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Sing your own special song
Make your own kind music
Even if nobody else sings along"

From "Make Your Own Kind of Music" by Mama Cass Elliott of the Mamas and Papas

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#161003 - 06/10/07 04:59 PM Re: healing [Re: WesQ]
markgreyblue Offline
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thanks wesque \:\)

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-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous



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