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#160390 - 06/07/07 10:21 AM Breathing...
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
You burst into my room as abruptly as a knife tearing into my heart.

Deep I stand drowning within the blood of my life, walking alone combating the rain as blistering drops conceal torment.

Who are you to come into my heart and head without permission?
A demon entering wildly into my life, dancing through without even asking my name.

In the silence of night my lacerated heart sorrowfully bleeding, dreaming of tomorrow because yesterday was swindled.
Malice aforethought of hurt conceived as promises are severed before his god.

Upon my battered wings and within my darkest caverns of a masticated soul are the shadows with which I take my journey.

The doorways of my sense are unlatched to make your spirit my domain. This bastard to whom I’m attached, as convicts to the ball and chain.

Drunk and raging with thirst for my young blood, searching eyes in the darkness through black glasses.
Never dry are the tears that I weep.

One of us should be the tool to save us from this wretched fate.
You cry out loud and laugh at me.

I created my own prison and this is where I live amid tumultuous fire and blinded by fear

My exhausted soul swallows deep while sitting among the ashes, keeping the secrets amidst the madness.

Through malevolence I behold and contemplate the strength of me that breathes…


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#160459 - 06/07/07 05:07 PM Re: Breathing... [Re: Jaysen]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Jaysen,

Really powerful, my friend. I remember your story, but this somehow puts it in an entirely different light. I'm glad you were able to do this. How has it helped you?

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#160463 - 06/07/07 05:15 PM Re: Breathing... [Re: roadrunner]
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Well Larry, after all this time and all the pain and all the mistakes I'm still here alive, fighting and breathing so... I mean that's gotta say something right?

J


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#160464 - 06/07/07 05:18 PM Re: Breathing... [Re: Jaysen]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Jay,

Yep, it does indeed. It's cool to see you claiming your voice and fighting back.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#160465 - 06/07/07 05:20 PM Re: Breathing... [Re: roadrunner]
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
I wouldn't go that far... but I'm not giving up.
You still have that guitar?

J


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#160484 - 06/07/07 06:38 PM Re: Breathing... [Re: Jaysen]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Yep, just mentioned that on another post. 71 years old and still soooooo sweet.

L.

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#160524 - 06/07/07 10:04 PM Re: Breathing... [Re: roadrunner]
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
Glad you're still breathing, Jay. Great poem.

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Eddie

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