Jay,
Hey if there were a Jay basket at the back end of my wagon it wouldn't be as much fun falling off. I mean the fall is the good part right? Once you hit the ground it's all over...
That's cool you can have a sense of humor about it. That helped me too. I used to fall off again - usually in a spectacular way - and tell myself, well, at least I'm in a familiar place.

I think that helped to avoid getting down on myself before I climbed back on again.
I can tell you that after 32 years clean the drugs still call out to me - every day, especially if I'm feeling stressed or down. I still try to be careful, REAL careful, but man, I would never go back.
Much love,
Larry