Hi bisulatino, How are you doing? I was hoping some of the other guys would have answered you by now. You may remember me, I am the straight guy who was talking to you about crushes a while back. Is this the same guy, not important, just wondering. How is the couples therapy going? It sounds like you still have unresolved anger at him. Not even sure you should be having sex with him right now. Your relationship with him has had a major set back, maybe he needs to start over from square one, in other words date you all over again.
Hey Clifford. It's not the same guy. This guy (Brandon) I have been dating for ~6 months. I do have unresolved anger towards him, along with the hurt from the cheating. The terrible part for me is that he keeps wanting the protect the third party (George) because it is his best friend. This issue came to a head this week, when George came back to visit.
The situation is awful in that Brandon's roommate is George's best friend and so there was an understanding that George would get to stay there while he was in town. I have fought with Brandon over this issue when it comes up, as I ask him to either not stay at his place during that duration and come stay at mine or if he is going to be around George then not to have any conversation with him at all besides "hi," to just ignore him. Brandon has been infuriated by this request a couple times, saying it is unreasonable, that he doesn't want George to feel uncomfortable, that he doesn't want George to think that he blames George for what happened, he wants to accept all the responsibility without hurting anyone else. Unfortunately, I do not feel comfortable at all around George and I feel abandoned if the solution is just for me not to be there when George and Brandon are together. Brandon has implied before that if I can't handle being around George that I am choosing to be that way and therefore should just not be there with him. Basically, when George comes into play we are no longer a couple who supports each other, we become two separate people. The therapist has brought this up and specifically mentioned "if you are like this in front of George, what kind of message is that going to send him?"
For now Brandon has agreed to suspend all contact with George, to essential "ignore" him as I asked. This at least allows us to not focus on this issue and instead continue to create new good memories and restrengthen the relationship a bit. We will continue couples therapy and have serious talks when needed to work on issues like my anger and Brandon's commitment to me. I have been reading a book "Not Just Friends" and much of the stuff it talks about in it is going on right now in our relationship. Specifically, this back and forth ambivalence and indecision on both our parts.
He prefers to sweep things under to rug
In my relationship with my wife, I was the one who cheated, three of the times were only fondling under the influence of lots of alcohol, and one was a affair with a gay guy. I would like to sweep them under the table, or discuss them with her, but the only thing she wants to do is yell and scream about it. She only knows about two of them, the first one in 1985 and the last one with the gay guy in 1995. I am going to cut this short before I take your thread over.
I sympathize with your wife. Being cheated on sucks, I think it is one of the worst things that can happen to a person in their life. You are lucky to have someone who sticks with you, even if they do yell and scream, after all that has happened to them. From my experience so far, the most important thing that you can do is be honest. Once you are being honest, the second most important thing you can do is commit to working on the relationship to make it better. Go to couples therapy so that you can both deal with your issues, read books and articles about infidelity to understand what is going on the relationship (patterns). Do your best to support your spouse, because even if you may not understand why all she wants to do is yell and scream if you love her you will still support her. It is hard, but it is a way for you to accept responsibility for what you have done. Of course, she has to support you back eventually and show a willingness to work on her own issues. How long all of this takes is not definite though and that is the hard part, how long should we keep trying until we should throw in the towel? All my therapist told me in response to this was, "when/if it is time you will know."
I know that after a few months I will have an answer, as all my thoughts and emotions as the result of my self-exploration and Brandon's actions and input will eventually settle and I will know what is best for me.