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#157892 - 05/23/07 08:33 PM “In My Cave” By: Kirk Gilbert © 2005
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“In My Cave” By: Kirk Gilbert © 2005

Today is another day and another night goes by in front of my face. The night so still and my soul is so cold. Why has it not ended yet? I sit by the door contemplating if I am known. I wait for a sine for the forgotten, which will never come. I hope for a new life, and not to be found. I find my cave so cold and dark. I wish for windows that will never come. I don’t need a door. For I will not use with the intention to bring more fear. I sit in my corner trembling to not be found. For I wish for death than to be locked and bound. I sit upon my stump waiting for my blackened angel for no white will find the pain in side. I wish for the one to light the flame that was washed away so long ago. What did I do to receive the wrath of three times three? Ten times I wait for one to find what sits here now. Ten times the pain floods my heart. Seven more times to hurt before the end. I wait with salt, spices and silk for the one that will take thee away. I sit for eternity for what may never take this away. For I know what is unwanted. The death in the night will not come for a cost so little. My pockets are empty, my mind is full, and all is worthless and lost. Where will I go? Where do I fit? This world is round I am a square freak and is looked upon just so. I look to the seas, but they are taken. I look to the land, but it is owned. I look to the stars, but they are named. I look to the space, but it is filled. Where do I fit in this world so miss placed and unwanted? Where can I go to be me? Where can I go to be free? Where can I go that the pain will not fallow? Where do I go from here?

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"I will never forget, nor shall I choose too remember."

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#158259 - 05/26/07 06:09 AM Re: “In My Cave” By: Kirk Gilbert © 2005 [Re: hereforus]
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Kirk,

Originally Posted By: hereforus
Where will I go? Where do I fit? This world is round I am a square freak and is looked upon just so. I look to the seas, but they are taken. I look to the land, but it is owned. I look to the stars, but they are named. I look to the space, but it is filled. Where do I fit in this world so miss placed and unwanted? Where can I go to be me? Where can I go to be free? Where can I go that the pain will not fallow? Where do I go from here?


Great questions, and I think we each have to find our own answers somehow - we are on the same path, but we walk it each at our own pace and in our own way.

When I was struggling with these questions, Kirk, I found this place to be my lifeline. It was a place I could be me, where I could be free from the shame and blame, if only I would let them go. This place can't be our rescuer; each of us is our own rescuer. But it was here that I allowed myself to discover my own power. Your "place" seems to have been imagination and the realm of verse and prose. Pretty cool.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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