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#156391 - 05/16/07 04:31 AM Wanting to Heal vs. Willingness to Heal
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HEALING IS AN ART, and not a science, a matter of heart and not the mind.

It is above all a mystical journey to the self.

The reason so many people do not heal is because of their refusal to see life or recovery as a mystical journey, especially if you are recovering from CSA, as it is above all recovery of faith, and trust in the divine, and its love and care and well intentions for you.

We get so lost in 'dealing' with the abuse and its after effects that we forget to heal them, and they keep ruminating over the years and showing up every now and then as behaviours and incidences we would rather not have.

So, instead of learning better ways to cope, handle or control life, let's learn better ways to heal.

Ultimately, we don't have to deal with our abuse experiences, or visit them repeatedly to get hurt again and again, we only have to learn to let go so that healing can take place. We only have to allow.

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Just as body can heal its wounds, on its own, so can the mind, or the memory. Once the wound has been cleaned and cleared and bandage put in place we have to allow it to heal.

The process of airing the wounds or cleansing begins with our acknowledgement of it, knowing and accepting what has happened in its true light, facing it and then letting it go, as an event in the past.

The main difficulty happens when it is time to let go of it, as while it is healing it is so much that we want to check it again and again that whether beneath the bandage it is being healed or not, and if we cannot trust life capability of healing itself, then healing can and does pose an added challenge.

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Now we need to do is understand our capability to initiate our own healing, through acceptance of it, and through prayer to a higher power, be it God or own inner self, for healing and Grace. Grace healing in minutes what humanly is not possible for lifetimes.

But to allow Grace in we need to have requisite humility to receive, which comes from accepting our past as it is, give up the questions of ďWhy me? What was God doing thenÖĒ etc, as they don't have any answers, at least right now, that would aid in our healing, they come to us when we are ready to receive them.

We need the courage to face our wounds and still bring all that we are to the present moment and ask the question, " That was past, what about now?..." That is when healing really begins, when we step into our power moment - the present.

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Every trauma that we worry about is a past event and a memory, so healing primarily is healing of human memory, and of the ego, which believes that "I got hurt", and hence continues to feel powerless, and hence recreate experiences of powerlessness.

Ego's challenge is to let go the past, though if it is used to deriving any power of sympathy or attention from it, then it would be very difficult for it to severe its ties from the past, then it would have nothing to hold on to and justify its anger.

Whatever we had experienced, was a moment in the past, so anger is always about a past moment which has not been accepted yet, by us. For the moment with accept it, with humility and grace, we can allow healing to occur.

Though the truth is that, sometimes we do get hurt, abused, or humiliated in life, as such is life, no one takes birth with a guarantee of a safe and pain free life, as that would be against the grain of our very birth, which is to realize the true nature of the self, so there won't be any possibility, of growth in such life as we would remain comfortable in our life through our life and hence never reach out to look at life through different, higher perspectives, as that is growth after all.

A capability to view all life, as seen by the scared, with eyes of oneness and unconditional love, and Grace.

So acceptance of life's bitter truths as it is, is the first step towards letting ego's hold over the past, and then turning its attention towards the present and the future. Otherwise we remain trapped in the cycle of being a powerless victim, for life.

And victims don't want to heal they just want to stay angry at the world and judge every one, including God.

Healing the Victim archetype so that it can graduate to Survivor archetype is the task we have to undertake individually, as without it healing remains just a talk-show; that we want to have each day, about us.

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Once the victim mindset that been healed and the power status relinquished, healing and empowerment can take place simultaneously. As a victim would never take responsibility of anything in his life, and every aspect of life would be present in such a poor light to the world so that greater sympathy can be collected from the outside world.

In energy terms such people are called energy vampires, who have to be centre of attention at all times, through any means, as without people around them giving compassionate attention, they would feel utterly empty and powerless, so they would plunge depth of deep depression. This dependency also makes then liable to learn techniques of manipulation and emotional blackmail.

On the other hand they themselves remain vulnerable to outside manipulation and hurt caused by slightest disapprovals.

Lot of victims use anger as means to stay out of the pits of depression though that itself takes a heavy toll on the physical body in the longer run, as excessive anger and hyper vigilance, naturally would.

As the power of entitlement is so adamantly stuck to them it is hard for them to look at the abuse experience in any other light as them being wronged and damned eternally, and hence Universe has to make up to them for it.

They would try to control every little aspect of their life instead of allowing universe to give them healing opportunities, they so want to be safe, that they miss out on all the triggers Universe would then send to them to initiate their healing process.

Again it is loss of the person, Universe owes us nothing.

The very fact that it kept us alive, unlike so many children who didnít make it through alive, out of the abuse experience; that itself should be considered as an unmistakable sign of its benevolent Grace towards us, as it really is.

So, Universe waits for us to open ourselves up, once again to allow its love and healing in.

And Universe's time is eternity.


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~ It's over!...Let go of Thy Past, Remember Thy Self ~

Why Don't People Heal, by Caroline Myss; 30 days to clean up your vibrations - Abraham-Hicks

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#156455 - 05/16/07 11:38 AM Re: Wanting to Heal vs. Willing to Heal [Re: Morning Star]
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Hi, Morning Star --

I think that my main challenge has been to realize that I have power and control over my life. I think I, and many survivors, have some problems with a belief system that relies on surrendering to the goodwill of outside forces.

Not necessarily a disagreement, Morning Star, just a counterpoint.

David


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#156472 - 05/16/07 12:43 PM Re: Wanting to Heal vs. Willing to Heal [Re: MemoryVault]
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David,

I understand your reluctance, but the only surrender we ever need to make is to our own inner self.

As per you having the power to control your experiences, we create experiences the way we are feeling inside.

So many of us can recall how despite our so many prayers during our abuse, no help seemingly came forward. The reason is that we blocked fresh energy experiences to flow in, by feeling so scared and blocked at the same time.

Allowing is our responsibility, Universe is always willing to help us out.

And also you must have noticed that you often experience exactly the experience you hate or fear to experience in other words, you are in vibrational match to the same experiences, as you are constantly thinking about them, this would also explain to you recreation of abuse experiences.

Morning Star



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~ It's over!...Let go of Thy Past, Remember Thy Self ~

Why Don't People Heal, by Caroline Myss; 30 days to clean up your vibrations - Abraham-Hicks

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#156817 - 05/18/07 10:49 AM Re: Wanting to Heal vs. Willing to Heal [Re: Morning Star]
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HEALING REQUIRES WORK, it asks us to be willing to surrender, to pray and to accept all that we are and above all to let of the past, and that it has created within us, be it habits or illnesses. It is a distinct willingness to let go of all our past wounds that initiates healing within us.

A willingness to heal means remaining open to new perspectives to life.

Why doesn't our life change? Because we do not stop living in the past, and instead keep probing and questioning it, because we don't want to give up our right to wrong others, to accept the past, else we won't have anyone to blame for our sufferings, even though holding such thoughts only blocks our healing and our chances of actualizing our destiny.

We always attract into our life, what we think about the most, which means whatever we donít want to experience or fear experiencing.

Instead if we take charge of our thoughts and intentions and deliberately choose to think happy thoughts, peaceful thought and thoughts that match the kind of experiences that we want to go through, then our life would be in harmony as we are in harmony with life.

We get stuck with the mind and its talks, we want to figure it out ourselves, we want to make it on our own, as we believe so hard that we are alone.

It feel quite easy, after a while to believe ourselves as victims, and perceive the world and our life experiences as a victim, but it takes a distinct presence of courage and self-love to stop reliving our past wounds, again and again, and instead bring all our focus back into the present moment. To stop running after the snake that once bit us.

We heal when we begin to believe that we are love, and guided and cared for, by the giant Universe, we are so intrinsic to.

As, we always attract into our life, what we think about the most, which means whatever we donít want to experience or fear experiencing.

Instead if we take charge of our thoughts and intentions and deliberately choose to think happy thoughts, peaceful thought and thoughts that match the kind of experiences that we want to go through, then our life would be in harmony as we are in harmony with life.

We can learn to handle things and control external world better and better, by learning better coping/control mechanisms, but that is not getting healed, becoming whole.

Healing means using each experience in our life as a guide, and finding peace within all that we have gone through, and learn to let go the 'whys' of life, let go of control, of fighting and struggling with life to keep ourselves safe, as we learn to trust that life will take us to every experience that we need for our growth.

Once we come to rest in that comfort ease sets in, and moments of synchrocity start showing up in our life, as we move into a greater harmony and abundance.

Another sign of being healed, when you no longer avoid getting triggered, you know they will help you healed further, the point of healing when you can pass by an old memories or a trigger and still walk away with the same calmness you walked in with.

When we can look back in gratitude and not in pain or anger, for we realize that if not for the 'darkness', we would have never met the Light.

Healing is an act of courage and of confidence in Universe's love for us. Healing happens with every breath is taken with this belief.

Because life changes, when we do. And the greatest gift we can give ourselves is to allow ourselves to be loved, by believing that we are worthy loving, just because we were born.

To believe and trust that we are guided, just because we are loved, unconditionally by the Universe that created us.

To believe that we can heal, and life can, does and is getting better, each day. Because life does not reflects what we want it to be, but what we believe we are worthy of.

Healing happens only when we bring all that we are to the present, and ask ourselves a single question, "What do I go next to become healthy and whole, again? And be willing to wait and stay open for answers to come to us, and finally healing begins with a simple prayer." Take me through this God." (The word God can also be replaced with the word, soul or inner self)

So, instead of learning ways of coping and avoiding breaking downs, let learn to allow life to heal us, mould us. Instead wasting our energy trying to control our life events, letís learn to let go.

Let us know that within each breakdown lies a possibility of our life changing, of new perspectives moving in, and also new energies of love and joy.

Healing is a private moment with the Light within. It happens on bended knees and with folded hands. It also begins when we follow our joy and make choices that add to it.

May Grace flow into your life, may goodness and health walk into your life like morning rays do, may you begin to open today to your soul. I wish you the very best of love and of light.


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~ It's over!...Let go of Thy Past, Remember Thy Self ~

Why Don't People Heal, by Caroline Myss; 30 days to clean up your vibrations - Abraham-Hicks

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#156938 - 05/19/07 03:45 AM Re: Wanting to Heal vs. Willing to Heal [Re: Morning Star]
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MOMENTS OF HEALING are always preceded by moments of turmoil or chaos, as that is when our old wounds and fears are brought to the surface for airing, and so that we can see them, face them, and release them by accepting them, as they are.

Each time we get triggered is one such moment, when an old memory has been reminded to us, so that we can initiate a process of its healing; for that reason triggers are excellent tools and benchmarks for our healing journey.

After a point they can also tell us as to how far we have really progressed in our healing journey towards becoming whole, when no exposed buttons are left for someone to press.

Both people and situations that trigger us or remind us of our childhood wounds are practically occasion when we can look within and take our power back from those very triggers.

The only way we can take back power from anything is by viewing in the presence of our inner self, our Light, as that is when we realize that a fear is just a fear, an area without light. Not a real thing on its own, it is the power we give to it makes it so large.

When things go out of control, that we need to withdraw from active involvement with the external life and retreat immediately into our centre as that is the moment something new is about to take place in our life, reinvention is about to happen, and allowing it is in our favour.

Let's not get carried away, by the 'external' in any case, the only point of change can be our response to a situation, from deep panic and anxiety to calm surrender to all that is, so that the spirit can intervene and take us to a new reality or a new perspective to life.

Relaxing into the moment is the greatest cooperation we can make towards universe's attempt to heal us, by creating chaos in our life.

Greater the chaos we can allow in our life, the greater is the possibility of renewal and our reinvention.

Chaos is a moment of prayer, and of joyous surrender to the belief that Universe is about to recreate a better reality for us, and no birth takes place without pain.


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~ It's over!...Let go of Thy Past, Remember Thy Self ~

Why Don't People Heal, by Caroline Myss; 30 days to clean up your vibrations - Abraham-Hicks

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#156939 - 05/19/07 05:56 AM Re: Wanting to Heal vs. Willing to Heal [Re: Morning Star]
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ONCE THE CHAOS IS OVER, its time to feel those emptied spaces with fresh healing light.

Visualize your self in a shaft of golden light coming from the cosmos and passing through you and going deep into the core of the earth.

Watch as your energies get brighter and brighter, and the then gradually expand this shaft to include your home and other spaces you inhabit.

Once you have recognise a fear you can release it into this shaft like a balloon going up in the air.

The shaft of light can be invoked each time you are feeling low, or enter into an anxious situation, know that the shaft of light will also protect you.

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~ It's over!...Let go of Thy Past, Remember Thy Self ~

Why Don't People Heal, by Caroline Myss; 30 days to clean up your vibrations - Abraham-Hicks

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