NASTY
dont u ppl eat anything normal?

Trev,

It's important you said that. Know why?

One thing abuse does to us is make us ask questions like "Why me?" Unfortunately there's no real answer to that one, but we need an answer anyway - and we need it really bad, and right now.

So for lack of any other answer we figure that what's happening to us is OUR fault. I should have run. I should have said no. Why did my body react to him? I should have told. And on and on.

This starts us on a whole LOT of bad feelings about ourselves. We feel worthless and unimportant. Not special to anybody. Our feelings don't matter and who gives a fuck for what we need? Why should they?

Sound familiar?

But ALL these feelings are false messages stuck in our heads by the abusers, and gradually we can learn to see and believe that. Have you noticed how a couple of the few guys have introduced themselves to you? Why would they do that? For the reasons I told you above. You are just as special and important as all the rest of us here.

Much love,
Larry

i dont ask why me anymore
i got my answer to that
and it wasnt my fault
thers nothing i could do about it
an i did say no. i said no alot
but they didnt lisen an that wasnt
my fault eithr.
an i dont feel worthless or like im not
important. i feel like everybody owes me
bigtime.
well not everybody but some people.
wen i say i feel like ppl dont want me around i mean
cuz i just say wats on my mind and i know i come off
as being a prick or being rude or disrespektful. and
sometimes scare ppl.
but now i have it under control mostly.
like when i get mad now i dont get to the point where
i wanna fite to the death like before.
or if i thot about family or shit that hapened long
enuff id have to destroy something
or someone or myself or just hurt ppl for no reason cuz
i want them to be mad at me, hate me, hurt me. all that
shrink stuff
but not so much anymore

personaly i missed ya dude ,

u just missed throwin down w me
how ru doing?

That cost money

ste

id rathr eat money then seaweed soup
or groundhog pie
if i didnt have money id just hide in
the bushes and beat the shit out of the
pizza delivry guy, steal the pizza.
id be all set

Roast pigs cheek is cheap and cheesy

Moldy cheese pizza is yummy too

ste

even tho thats friging gross its
probly better then hospital food
and its probly better then my sistrs
cooking to!

your right heh,im ok, glad your back