Jacob,
As I hide my face from you
Tell me, what would you do
Who would help you
Where would you turn to
I would probably do what you have done here, my friend - say I'm fed up and feeling lost. I would say how I feel, I would reach out for support because things look so low.
As Brian says, recovery can be a lonely journey. No one can do the work for us or give us the strength we need. All the decisions are ours. But if we look I think all of us can find that strength. It's just that sometimes we feel too tired to look for it anymore. But i do believe with all my heart that it's there - for all of us.
Much love,
Larry