in learning to really negotiate business requests -  
and what i can  
apply this to my own life- and I realize defintely the bravery  
 and stength to live and connect - and mostly negotiate business relationships  
that involve healthy and strong decision making (pluse exchanges)  
 In now sort of evaluating this process too - i can sort of have a vision of who  
actually cares or is a decent person - and who doesn't -  
or perhaps who is good to have around and who is not -  
who will help me with my goals and positivity -and not jabs  
and who will keep the day bright - and productive - and profitable - and worth living.  
 just more and more - i am a hermetic being - (separate)

i've done soemthings now
i've never been present enough to do -  
and still feel healthy and strong  

i feel pretty proud and brave eh!!!! 

" not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous