could this be a result of the abuse?
it's been 10 months but it's still a problem (the blood)

Maybe, but blood in your stool is definitely something you need to see your doctor about.

See a doc, my good man. Please...

John

Definately need to see a doctor about it. Please don't be bashful about talking with him about your history. He needs to know some detail so that he can help you. That's why he's there.

Dan,

You absolutely should see a doctor about this. Yes, you will have to tell him what happened, but believe me, this won't be the first time he has seen a case like this. Just tell yourself this is just you asking for the help you need. That's all.

Much love,
Larry

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go to the doctor ASAP -

you may need just an antibiotic to help you heal

but don't be squeamish

protologists and or GP's

you can - and they expect you to talk about anything! -

NO WAY am I gonna tell a doctor anything

Dan, I understand your nervousness, but blood in your stool is very serious, especially if the blood is fresh (bright red). You really should see a doctor about it. Colon infections can be extremely dangerous.

i'd rather die than let anyone find out

dan,

At the very least you need to ge checked out. I've had gastro-intestinal issues and they are not fun, to put it lightly. Don't let this trouble continue.

Dan --

It's better if you could see a doctor and disclose what happened. But if you can't, you can still see a doctor about the blood. It's a way of taking care of yourself -- helping yourself.

I just almost died because I don't like going to doctors. I had this abdominal pain and fever, and ignored it for weeks. It turned out to be a ruptured appendix, and a doctor (when someone finally demanded I see one) had to yell at me: "Get in your car and go to the Emergency Room! Now!!!"

I'm glad I did.

The embarrassment of that one visit will go by quickly, but the relief if it turns out to be nothing, or getting the help you need if something's wrong, is important! And knowing that you can get help and fix a problem, even a problem as personal as this, is very empowering. It's part of being a survivor.

You couldn't heal or control the abuse, but here's something you can get help for. Please try.

MV

Go see the doc, you eventually may have to.
The risk of infection is obvious.
Docs are well used to dealing with this
sort of issue,

ste

"I'd rather die than let anyone find out"...that fear is terribly strong!! Almost as strong as our fear someone would discover our abuse!! "If anyone knew my secret...then????" This is a time to think of your safety! - to put your health before all else!! "The Secret" has been kept long enough!! When you were able to tell our community about what happened to you..I bet that was frightening. But once the secret was out...you may have felt relief...not alone again!! "The secret" you are keeping about the bleeding can be just as fearful to let out but also very damaging if not told! Dan, you and your life and health, I believe, is worth more than anything else that can be! I'm not telling YOU MUST GO but I really encourage you, Dan, to get your body healed, settled and free from the secrets that can harm you!! One more step in the journey!!

Howard (((Dan)))

Dan,

Please understand that no one is trying to drag you into something that badly scares you. Your reaction is NORMAL! Any teenager and most of us adults would also have a lot of negative feelings about this. We are just interested in your health and safety.

Do you think you could call a medical helpline or a teen crisis line? Those are anonymous and someone there would be able to talk to you directly on the phone.

Just remember bro, you have done NOTHING wrong and NOTHING to be ashamed about. And Howard is so right: I have done so many things in my recovery that at first I considered to be impossible.

Much love,
Larry

Dan, this might help you:

http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/003130.htm

Thanks, Nobbynobs!! I'm glad you could share that information. I really hope it helps you, Dan. The cause may not be what you fear the most!! I'd hate to see something serious let go because of fear only to realize that it was a lower bowel infection - very treatable!!

Howard

Dan,

If you cant SAY the words to a Doc, please consider writing it out on a note to hand to him.

Just an idea..but it may help you communicate this to the Doc.

Rob

well I went to see the doctor today
according to the doc's diagnosis, the bleeding is the result of what he calls an 'anal fissure', which can result from any kind of "trauma to the rectum"
apparently these fissures heal over time but they can reopen fairly easily..that might explain why it came back after 9 months
he asked some embarrassing questions of course and there was no chance that I was about to tell him what actually happened..(my parents would have been informed on the spot)..
so when he asked if I had had any violent bowel movements that might have caused a fissure I said yes right away
he seemed satisfied with the explanation
he gave me some meds and a printout of how to alter my diet to decrease the chances of the fissure reoccuring
glad that's over

I'm glad you had the courage to go to the doctors, Dan!! Instead of worrying and hiding "the secret", isn't it better to know what was happening and it's treatable? I applaud you for stepping out on your journey!!!


Howard

Dan, I understand your undeniable urge to hide the truth, because even I have yet to unveil the truth to my parents. But the bastard that did this to you deserves to be punished for his crime. I may be wrong but, in a sense I do not think that you have fully come to terms that this horrible act has occurred. I know how hard it is to come out of shock, but it is important to be true to yourself. You should tell people around you so that they can help and support you in your journey. Well, at least those who you KNOW care and love for you. Maybe that might not be your parents. It may be hard to see it, but I am sure if you look around there is someone. But I am glad that you went to the docs, good job. And I am sorry that this happen to you. We are here for you, if nobody else understands, we do!!

Dan,

I'm glad you went to the doctor! That was probably a very hard step, but you survived it. This should tell you a lot about your ability to survive. I agree with skooter about the need to tell someone, though. He's described exactly the right kind of person to speak to, as well. Please heed his advice. And at the very least, keep posting here, where we understand you. You will always be welcomed, heard, believed, and supported here.

Dan, stress can cause anal fissure, I know because I have one that gets pretty big when I stress out.
Mine is not connected to the inside, but outside, and it makes sitting pretty uncomfortable.

Glad you went to the doc though, and you know it is not a life threat. A good start in the process of knowing that you can reach out for help without embarrassment,

ste

Dan,

Well done! I haven't been on the site for a day or so and I didn't see this. I'm so glad you dealt with this at the doctor's office.

I won't pressure you on the matter of telling your parents, but I do think it needs to be stressed to you that you have a legal right to the complete confidentiality of your medical records.

Much love,
Larry

Good for you, Dan!

Good for you! Neglecting your body for any reason might back fire. Infections aren't always a big deal. When you let them go, that's a different story.

One thing you will find out is your not the only guy that this has happened to, sadly won't be the last. Be good to your self.