eh -

just writing a bit more -

i find - when i stick around the house -

as much as i love worrying about keeping the house in order -
(definitely haus husband tendencies)

i do not wish to be a haus husband ( unless i paint at home i guess)

i love the small caretakings and a nice stocked, ordered, comfortable home -

BUT - i think that - when i am home - it's like I get so wrapped up in my anxieties - the cleaning nearly is an OCD

you know?

and then also - i think I do not want to be a haushu...

i perhaps would not be happily resolute at the burnished edges of my haus.

at the same time - I think i need to life my head up and set a tragectory for out there -

I think i just need to be brave enough - to envision this - rather than

block at the monolithic fear (s) of what if'ssss..........

but to vision beyond the fear -

and push myself -

I saw a very nice movie on the way back from Moscow -

"Miss Potter" -

at first the distinct accent - turned me off slightly -

but i really enjoyed it - I mention it - becuase Miss Potter was an independent creative. Beatrix Potter was the children's author.

I reccommend it - starring - Renee Zellweeger and Ewan McGregor -

it was very good.

Mark

Mark,

Your idea of a house isn't just a clean place, it's also very nicely decorated and, well, just beautiful. You have a great aesthetic sense, my friend. I wouldn't worry about your interest in matching that by keeping things tidy unless that diverts you from everything else or hijacks your other interests.

Much love,
Larry