I just wanted to say, i feel more alive this evening than i have in a long time.
Thankyou Morningstar for that suggestion about figuring out what my soul needed. That was so helpful.
I did some real hard thinking about the ways i've felt about things which have happened between me and my bf. It's been pretty heavy stuff and turned this week upside down, but it's been stuff i've needed to properly address for a long time. We've been talking a fair bit over the past couple of days and i've been honest about these things. Thank god we can actually talk properly now. I still feel a bit confused about some things, but i'm going to carry on thinking about stuff. It's a bit of a 'messy' place to be in, but it's still better than the depression.
Anyway, just wanted to add that, since my last post.
and thankyou for all your replies to that post.