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#144210 - 03/06/07 10:05 AM Calling all Four Springs retreat brothers!!
GentleSoul Offline
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Registered: 03/05/07
Posts: 236
Loc: Manhattan
Hello everyone,

I'm grateful to be in this community. I started my recovery about 2 months ago and I'm very thankful to find out I'm not alone and that I have brothers and sisters out there who can help carry the burden and the pain. I just finished the weekend retreat in Four Springs and I just wanted a chance to get in touch with my brothers again because I miss you all very much. Thank you all for being a part of my recovery. This is Jay by the way and first of all I'd like to say hi to my group members: Gary, AJ, Ryan, Gordon, John, Gabe, and Ed. We bared our souls and felt each other's pain. I'm very honored to be a part of your recoveries I hope to see you all very soon. Thank you all for making me feel welcome and letting me know that I belong. Although I was emotionally and physically exhausted yesterday, I couldn't go to bed without writing down all of my brothers' names for fear I might forget you all. To Randy and Richard in SF, let me know what I can do to help you get started on starting a support group up there. Dale, thank you for the wonderful poem, the energy rock you found for me, and the spirit bracelet. I still don't know what you saw in me to prompt you to be so giving towards me. John (WalkingSouth), thank you for everything. Our lives are parallel in so many levels it's uncanny. I love you. Little Darryl, thank you for letting me see the wonder and joy of your inner child. Keep referring to yourself as Little Darryl (I'm sorry if I spelled your name wrong)!! John (with the hat), thank you for taking the initiative to come up and connect with me. You surprised me when you greeted me in my native tongue. Patrick, I hope you and your Burmese kittens made it home safely. Spence, thank you for being my partner in the Shame Busting session and entertaining us at the campfire with your drumming skills. Brian (from Las Vegas), I'm sorry I missed your performance on the ivory Friday night. I hope I get a chance to see you perform one day. Chris, your talent is phenomenal! Your poem, sculpting, and drum skills were awesome! Brian (Cedar Rapids), thank you for opening up to me and sharing with me some of your secret shame. I wish we had more time to talk because we have so much in common. Steve, thank you for being a challenging roomie. Although we had our moments, I'm glad I got you instead of Wes. Hi Wes, thank you for letting me see your gentle and tender side. Even though it was a brief glimpse, I know in my heart you are a good person. To Art (Mr. Fabulous!) thank you for that playful scene you had with David at the Shame Busting session. Hi David! I'm sorry we didn't get a chance to connect. That goes to all the others who I didn't get the honor to know. Tom, sorry I mistook you for Dale. Queenie Darrell, hope to see you in LA for Sunday night's support group. Joseph, I know I may be stepping over the line here, but I hope you embrace your softer side. You are a wonderful person & I love you just the way you are. Wayne, I heard your struggles with your definition of how to incorporate and reconcile the masculine and feminine. May you also find the Greatest Love of all; learning to love yourself. Just know I'm in the same boat with you. Dwayne, thank you for taking a part my sculpting, you portrayed my innocence perfectly. Richard from Baston! Your Patriots suck! My Chargers are going to rock next season! By the by, I love your accent. I'm sorry we didn't get a chance to butt heads over football. Finally, to Jason. I'm sorry you had to leave early my brother. I hope you know I'm thinking of you and that you're not alone. Anyways, I hope I didn't forget anyone. If I did or if I misspelled any names, I'm sorry. From the bottom of my heart and my inner child to all of yours, "BYE GUYS! SEE YOU SOON!"




Edited by ModTeam (03/10/07 03:43 AM)
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#144213 - 03/06/07 10:24 AM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! [Re: GentleSoul]
Dewey2k Offline
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Registered: 08/22/05
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J,

Thank you for letting me be your innocence. It had a profound effect on me as the weekend went on, and revealed to me yet another area I need to work on. Your presence at the weekend in itself was remarkable, and I never failed to ponder the lesson you taught me each time I saw you during the weekend.

Little D says, "Hi," and wants to know when we can set up a play date! \:\)

Take care, bro.



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#144215 - 03/06/07 10:40 AM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! [Re: Dewey2k]
Rabbit Offline
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Registered: 12/07/05
Posts: 91
Loc: San Francisco
Jay,

When I envision you in my mind's eye, I recall the strength you possess. Thank you for sharing yourself deeply over the weekend. Your courage in creating your sculpture was amazing.

It is an honor to have your warm wishes as part of my support. I will hold my rock and send my love and support your way, my friend.

Regarding the Chargers...I'm in need of a pro football team to root for. The Niners are too elite and blue blood for me, The Raiders are scary thugs. I've been following Jacksonville because my old college QB play WR, but they are a continent away (and in the bible belt...) Maybe I will hop on the lightening bolt bandwagon!

With love and respect,
Randy

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There are different wells within us, some fill with each good rain

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#144235 - 03/06/07 12:37 PM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! [Re: Rabbit]
Rambler Offline
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Registered: 12/11/06
Posts: 134
Loc: Planet Earth
Salamat!

J,

I am sorry we didn't get a chance to talk more. But........ You are going to have to put up with me at some of the L.A. meetings. I have a long drive to make them as well, but it will be plenty worth it.

I am sooooo happy to see that you signed on to the boards. We all have so much to share that will be such a great benefit to each other.

And if you want to watch a real sport, watch the NBA.

Go Lakers!



Pareko


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#144253 - 03/06/07 02:23 PM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! *DELETED* [Re: Dewey2k]
GentleSoul Offline
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Registered: 03/05/07
Posts: 236
Loc: Manhattan
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I can finally admit I pretend to say and do nice things so people will think I'm a standout guy.

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#144254 - 03/06/07 02:42 PM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! [Re: GentleSoul]
Dewey2k Offline
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Registered: 08/22/05
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The bear is "Little D"... not to be confused with Derdlecar's "little D". ;\)

J, Little D says he'll check his schedule. LOL


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#144279 - 03/06/07 07:02 PM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! [Re: Dewey2k]
philobat Offline
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Registered: 01/31/07
Posts: 293
Loc: California
Hey Li'l d! I love your new avatar!

Much love,

D


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#144323 - 03/06/07 11:45 PM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! [Re: philobat]
WalkingSouth Offline
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Registered: 08/30/05
Posts: 16264
Jay,

Thanks so much for that heartfelt tribute to the weekend and those who were there. Very moving.

You deserve all good things, little bro, and remember, you were made to be beautiful (see my sig line below), and beauty is what each of us saw when you allowed us to look inside.

Lots of love,

John

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#144377 - 03/07/07 01:00 PM Re: Calling all Four Season retreat brothers!! [Re: WalkingSouth]
philobat Offline
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Registered: 01/31/07
Posts: 293
Loc: California
Jay-

It was awesome to see your miraculous transformation! What a change! Who knew it would be like that! I sure as shit didn't!

btw, you are queenier than me! LOL!

Darrell


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#144412 - 03/07/07 08:03 PM Re: Calling all Four Springs retreat brothers!! [Re: GentleSoul]
Elad 12 Offline
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Registered: 02/15/05
Posts: 1176
Loc: on the coast
Jay,

I enjoyed getting to know you so much over just a couple of days. Thank you for listening to me as I for some reason felt comfortable sharing things with you that I didn't even share with my group. Somehow I just felt a deep connection with you and am glad that I did. You are a wonderful soul that I hope to spend time with agian sometime, anytime.

Dale


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