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#141998 - 02/17/07 11:58 AM people used to say "mark - give up on love"
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hi guys,

having a slower than usual day -

i'm writing individual emails and stuff -

and i find i keep on second guessing myself about relationships - past - and present -

and the big question mark - ? - future - is it possible?

down in florida - people who knew me at Georgi's Alibi - an

older gentlemen - who was very sweet - very conservative - but too old for me to
date - kind of saw the pain in my face at tmes - and also
loved laughing other times too - a golden heart - as he would help charitably to folks around town - and was quite well off now - and retired -

but - he'd say "Mark give up on love - it never happens" - it seemed cynical -

and I saw his pain and loneliness as well -

I had dinner with him and a friend of his - who actually was a priest - emissary to the Vatican and gay as well (we all drank at a gay bar together! LOL)

and he kind of got smart with me one night - and I said "BACK OFF PRIEST-O!"

they loved that - but whatever the priest was icky -

---

but will love ever happen -

do I need too much -

? - but it's weird

I think once the career kicks in again - if I can just meet with someone on the relationship level and not the professional since - that world is each individually -

I had a date last night - and though I don't match with the guy -

I know that - I can see - that - if I have a career -the just

person to be with vibe - will be much better -

oh who knows -

it's never good to be bored and put all that on someone

lighten -up and let life happen mark

-forcing life - messes it up

m



Edited by markgreyblue (02/17/07 11:59 AM)
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#141999 - 02/17/07 12:05 PM Re: people used to say "mark - give up on love" [Re: markgreyblue]
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i guess the abuse part

i think makes it harder for me to

have gotten that already -

but i've worked hard enough

now -

i think - i just kind of keep my head in check -

'let' go' keep working at life

build your life kind of thing -

a friend from high school -

sent me pics of her home in lexington
kentucky -
under renos - an older home

and she's - got this nice place -

friends - and a bf -

so - it's like -

just keep working -

\:\) we can do it!

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#142001 - 02/17/07 12:06 PM Re: people used to say "mark - give up on love" [Re: markgreyblue]
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Mark,

I am sure things will come right for you in the end. I hope you can find happiness and love in your life.

Mark, you heart is also good and in my opinion is made of something worth more than gold and diamonds. that is, it is made of pure love and kindness.

be gentle on yourself,

Duncan

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#142016 - 02/17/07 12:50 PM Re: people used to say "mark - give up on love" [Re: duncanUK]
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pax

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#142022 - 02/17/07 01:37 PM Re: people used to say "mark - give up on love" [Re: markgreyblue]
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????

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#142024 - 02/17/07 01:53 PM Re: people used to say "mark - give up on love" [Re: duncanUK]
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latin for 'peace.'

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