Heard this today on the radio....I know it has lotsa triggers, but it also expressed what I have experienced because of my perp. It's painful, but accurate...hope it does not offend.

Because Of You
Written By: Kelly Clarkson/David Hodges/Ben Moody

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
Iíve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I donít get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And itís not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know thatís weakness in your eyes
Iím forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart canít possibly break
When it wasnít even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I donít get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I donít know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
Iím ashamed of my life because itís empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you


It brought tears to me....of frustrations and anger, but also of expressing what I've felt.

Hal