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#139225 - 01/27/07 12:01 PM i like somethings about myself but not all
markgreyblue Offline
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I want to like everything about myself -

but it's like I see elements of things

that I know are human nature - that I wish

I didn't have in me but it also seems

clear why - I would like such things -


I suppose it comes down to

what a therapist once said

"wanting but not wanting"

I think I want myself and life to be something better than

what it is - I want to achieve and also

to be a better person - an excellent person.

It bothers me that I feel I have a lazy side - and I want to

"kick it's butt" (that side) -

oh...I tihnk I need to take life as it comes -

and not paint the whole picture - with most of the information

left out..... (and let my fear paint the most horrible view
before I am there)

no more doom and gloom - I am going to project - positively \:\)

the version of what I think I am hoping for \:\)

- M

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#139230 - 01/27/07 12:33 PM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
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i guess - conservative.

but no log cabins.


;P

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#139235 - 01/27/07 01:05 PM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
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i kind of want to share this -

it's cool -

the negative feelings about moving forward -

like knowiing where i want to go - but seeing the storm only

or - taking a wait and see view

or - like the ostrich head in the sand ....

it made me laugh -

but also because

i looked outside - it's -5 degrees F

I need food - and there's no two ways about this -

i have to go out -

I also need to walk the whole way

so - -5 degrees is never a party - unless you get to keep in - eh?

hahah

so - the feelings - they do change - but -

hatin' life now 'so to speak' ;\)

anyway - cheers - have a good one -

stay (((((coozy)))

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#139258 - 01/27/07 03:45 PM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
markgreyblue Offline
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i did it.



being alone can be a bitter pill to sit with.

but there can be ok moments - and nice ones.

it just may not be as sweet as it can be with another person
being there.

again - and being alone can have nice times but i'd rather

pair off right now.

also - being alone - so much can sap energy in a big dose.

but - it can be done once your cool with it.



Edited by markgreyblue (01/27/07 03:47 PM)
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#139259 - 01/27/07 04:00 PM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
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actually learning all this kind of makes it easier

just to get on with livin'

ok with life n' stuff.

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#139261 - 01/27/07 04:01 PM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
markgreyblue Offline
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kinda. \:\)

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#139476 - 01/30/07 12:21 AM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
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take care of yourself mark.

Duncan

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#139623 - 01/30/07 07:26 PM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: duncanUK]
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am doin' dat.

\:\)

thanks duncaccino!

\:\)

SF - is really good.

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#139624 - 01/30/07 07:26 PM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
markgreyblue Offline
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SF= San Francisco.

(here for 2 weeks)

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#139847 - 02/01/07 08:12 AM Re: i like somethings about myself but not all [Re: markgreyblue]
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Hi Mark

I think i will have to make myself a strong "duncaccino" sometime :-). I hope you are well.

Duncan

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