Last week I stumbled upon nomsv and at those early moments everything seemed very clear. I could see how my SA, albeit mild abuse, has effected me today. I've been so sexually withdrawn and confused about my sexuality. However, last week I felt pretty assured that I was heterosexual. I have my first appointment with a therapist on Monday. The closer Monday comes the more I feel myself shut down. A haze of confusion has seemed to settled over my head. It's like I don't want to feel anything. Feeling seems to be uncomfortable. The whole situation makes me very uncomfortable because I want to be able to tackle these issues with the therapsit, but with the haze of confusion it seems impossible. Can anyone relate?
I'll be out of town this weekend but I'll let you know how Monday goes. Thanks.
"It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end."
--Ursula K. Le Guin
"Mental health is a commitment to reality at all times."
--M. Scott Peck