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#282410 - 04/05/09 06:05 PM Re: Confused [Re: ForeverFighting]
Anarion Cti Offline
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Registered: 03/23/09
Posts: 157
Loc: Eastern US
ForeverFighting, thanks for using that verse. It was a real encouragement to me.

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"Thou, O Lord, are the shield about me;
You're my helper,
You're the one who lifts up my head."
"Whom have I in heaven or earth but You?"

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#283403 - 04/12/09 04:31 PM Re: Confused [Re: ForeverFighting]
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Registered: 04/03/09
Posts: 36
Loc: Illinois
For most of my life I have wondered where I was orientation wise.
I get arroused by seeing men on the street, go home and fantasize about them and+.
I hate those feelings and can't stop them. If I discover I am gay I feel it might take me over the edge.
For me that is the hardest part of being SA. These feelings drive me nuts. I want so bad to live straight, but those feelings and my reactions to them make me wonder.
How do you handle those feelings? I wish they would leave and not come back..it isn't happening.I do think none the less I can't ignore them either.
I wonder where to go with this.


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#283806 - 04/15/09 05:55 PM Re: Confused [Re: starman77]
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Registered: 03/10/09
Posts: 1122
Loc: Pa, but likely traveling...
Starman,

I struggle with this too. Since I was 13 (47 now). It was really bad for me 2 months ago. Then I started seeing a T to work through the CSA and found this site. 2 months later my SSA is much lower. It has not totally gone away, but I can live with it.

Your brother,
Jim

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#283825 - 04/15/09 08:30 PM Re: Confused [Re: starman77]
Daniel_forgotten Offline


Registered: 02/07/09
Posts: 479
Originally Posted By: starman77
For most of my life I have wondered where I was orientation wise.
I get arroused by seeing men on the street, go home and fantasize about them and+.
I hate those feelings and can't stop them. If I discover I am gay I feel it might take me over the edge.
For me that is the hardest part of being SA. These feelings drive me nuts. I want so bad to live straight, but those feelings and my reactions to them make me wonder.
How do you handle those feelings? I wish they would leave and not come back..it isn't happening.I do think none the less I can't ignore them either.
I wonder where to go with this.


I feel EXACTLY the same. Only difference it started like a month ago. It's driving me nuts. it makes me want to hurt myself in every way possible. im too embarrased


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#283874 - 04/16/09 04:42 AM Re: Confused [Re: Daniel_forgotten]
Barney Offline


Registered: 07/31/06
Posts: 236
Loc: Southern Utah/Northern Arizon
Daniel

hope you reconsider hurting yourself. Suggest the reason yu may have some of these feelings was a result of your being molested. Not that you chose to have them.

As you see from Jim's response, working with a t and being here can make a difference in how you experience the feelings.\

get lots of good information about the subject then you can decide what is right for you to do about it


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