boy, if i had a dollar for every time my wife said we have our rolls reversed.
let me ask you, what's wrong with being feminine? if you remove all of society's messages and all, i think it is a pretty good deal. typically females are neater, cleaner, more nurturing and affectionate. i guess i have a ton of feminine qualities, but most of them are good ones. in fact, i think i could largely get help and recover because i have those qualities. typical men have a really hard time getting help, because they are stuck in the rut off bulling their way through. they dont have that emotional softness that allows them to be weak and needy.
look, the reason this troubles you is that you think the world judges you for it, and some people might. as a whole though, the world doesnt care about your feminine ways. you have to blow off that small percentage that does, and label them for the jerks they are. then you have to just relax and be yourself.
compassion is a light even to the darkest soul