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#132149 - 10/07/05 06:26 AM Re: boy girl debate
michael Joseph Offline
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Registered: 03/11/01
Posts: 2719
Loc: Virginia
thanks mike i had long talk w friend 3hrs over this and it helped.

seems I want a dad, I am looking at this close w therapist every week, I tend to agree w friend that i want a dad, I will update you guys

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#132150 - 10/07/05 02:20 PM Re: boy girl debate
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Registered: 04/30/03
Posts: 97
Loc: mid atlantic
Yes the csa does not make it easy to know what orientation I am. I really wanted to be straight but my fantasties were always about men. I was married for 18 years but in the past 3 years with therapy I have begun to accept myself as gay. It wasn't one day that I suddenly realized but over time with the help of my therapist and other male survivors. However I sometimes find my myself staring as a beautiful woman walks by me. I am at a loss to why I am doing this except I admire beauty. Also I don't have a sexual desire but just the sheer beauty of the woman - her appearance, the way she carries herself and way she is dressed. Now when a beautiful man walks by me - I am envious that I wished I looked that way or I think his wife or partner are lucky to know such a man. For many years I didn't want to admit I was gay becuase I couldn't deal with the issue that possibly I enjoyed or wanted to be abused. Now I know that is not correct because there was no consensual sex but rape and I didn't cause it to happen. So I am still in the prcoess of accepting my sexual orientation because I fought or acted straight for so many years that it is difficult for me to be honest with myself. Yes the csa causes much confusion in many men including myself but I heading in a more honest direction about my orientation.


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#132151 - 10/16/05 01:12 PM Re: boy girl debate
michael Joseph Offline
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Loc: Virginia
had a date went well guess that is good

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#132152 - 10/17/05 12:47 AM Re: boy girl debate
WalkingSouth Offline
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Registered: 08/30/05
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Good for you!

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