Your getting some good stuff from your fellow survivors here... the only thing that I would suggest is to find that capable therapist. I know that tends to sound like Johnny One Note, but therapy with this stuff is highly recommended because of its so personal nature. And by personal, I mean, idividualized.
We certainly tend to play the old tapes for one reason or another. Mine get played to remind me of what I shit I am. I'm not feeling that way now, but they are there to remind me when I get down. I am working on that, however, so that I never play them, just deal with what's at hand. Heaven knows, there's enough to deal with on a daily basis without going into our abusive pasts.
Good luck in finding that "perfect" therapist.
If you need some help in that, we have the resource pull down, above, and we have Ken Singer who tries to make recommendations upon request.
Good luck and welcome aboard.
"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."