do you feel sorry for those who have been abused and go on to become perps themselves?
Actually - yes I do!!!
I actually Pray that they get help. But you see - I'm not a religious person - although I was brought up that way....
I say *Pray* because I don't know what other word to use.
You see - in jail/prison - the crime hated most by inmates is the abuse of children and rape.
Putting it more succinctly - men in jail/prison - hate - more than anything else - people accused of - and/or convicted of - ****ing with a child or raping - either a child or a teen or a girlfriend or a woman.
So the number one hated crime is child abuse and the number 2 crime is rape.
So - why do I pray. Well I pray that a person who is a victim of abuse - who becomes a perp - I pray that he gets help - before he gets put into jail and/or prison.
Because - he'll get the living shit beat out of him. And I've witnessed it. Usually those perps get protective custody - but not always.
You know why? Because if you go in through a local jail and onwards through the system - as you are being held for trial or plea bargaining - and or court findings and reports etc.
You might think that you can lie to the other inmates and say that you are in for - say - hitting my kid. But..........
In the majority of Institutions - it is inmates that work in the office - in the administration offices - and process paperwork. And so - these inmates - also live in cells - on blocks or tiers - with other inmates - and before you know it - the word is out - that a person is a child molester[say].
Oh Boy - that's bad news.
If you don't ask for protected custody - you'll get beat up pretty bad - and then you end up in protective custody.
I wanted to be in protective custody - because I was a male victim of sexual child abuse - and I feared for my life. And I feared being raped in jail.
But if I chose Protective Custody [PC] - I would have been locked down 23 hours a day - and you loose other valuable privileges - like being able to go to the library. The one hour outside your cell is just for exercise - no walking around the general population.
And I also pray for victims who become abusers - because they might run up against a guy like me -who *had* anti-social traits.
In my life's experience - out of the 7 men that abused me - I truly believe that the majority of my perps - were probably abused themselves. And that is why I can feel sorry for them - and because - my abuse was back in the 50's - their abuse probably happened to them - somewhere from 1920 onwards.
Today - if we don't get out more stories like mine - and place it in the hands of abusers - that might never get a clue - as to the what and the why - they do what they do.
And my plan is: is to get my Book - into every prison system library in the country. And let them just sit there and read what it's like to be ****ed up - all of your life - without help.
At least that is my beginning step - in making people aware - because you might say - that I know how to go to the source.
I would love for the day to arrive - where I could do a speech in a Prison - and after the speech - hand out my book at the back of the room.
I have the courage to go back there and do that.
Because - that's where there really is:
"A Captured Audience"