yesterday a friend ... who i have known since age twelve .... said somethings so harshly over email... but rather - they seemed cold..
inconsiderate - ... but i know it is her ...
just her ...
i mean .. there's facets to communicating with people - that are coming so much more 'in my eyes'
she is a good friend... and has much to offer in terms of a caring .. knowledge... and support...
no one is perfect...
but i think i've not wanted think in terms of
the good and bad at once - in all -
i used to settel for any old treatment -
and now - after really being - the me i now know
safely - with caring and appreciation - and humanity....
i know i maybe didn't want to consider the good - and the impefect in myself - and so i think
to be treated as something - whole -
and not something receiving from an imperfect
- it's hard to say - but i mean - i think there's little things that bug us - about each other ...
and then also - it frees us up to really find things in life - that satisfy us - so that we can come back to each other... and be ok and good -
- in a real way...i think this is so vague...
but i went out today early - as usual -
i met - up with another bizarre coincidence -
and then saw my friend james - at Timothy's Coffee house...
i sat there - and just appreciated so much the depth of each of us -- like the people behind the counter - one is a very bright and talkative scholar
and James - has his real nice qualities too
i guess - it's generally a good time -
the vagueness of our positives and negatives
and life ... are ok -
though i am traveling - i am here. i am taking care of life... and yeah the struggle of life...
but i am here... and ok ---
lucky to know the people i do ...i think - it is great - to have those folks in my life.
they let me be me - and never make me feel badly
but support with practical reminders -or
it's a good thing.