Life is taking me into new territory. Tomorrow is my last day at my current job. I am lucky that I was able to get enough (hopefully) money in loans and grants to not work for a few months. My life has been consumed by my job sinse I stared over two years ago. It will be nice to be able to focus on healing myself and my studies for once.
I am actually sad about leaving my job. Don't get me wrong, I DO NOT like the job. However, I have developed some good friendships with my colleagues. I will miss talking with them, even arguing with some of them.
I saw my T today. He congratulated me on all the progress I have achieved sinse I first met him. I am developing an actual sense of self esteem. I am now learning to like myself, and someday I will actually love myself. I am getting more comfortable in my skin. I still have body issues, but I am learning to not be so hard on myself. I now know that I have worth, that I am worthy of respect and love.
My T and I have agreed that we do not need to meet so often. We will now meet again in the middle of September, and then go from their.
I am so happy with where my life is going now. I have goals, and AMBITION! I have never had goals before. I am excited about working hard to achieve my goals.
THis is NOT goodbye, but I need to thank each and every one of my brothers here. Without all of your love and strength, I would not have been able to bring myself to where I have gone. (I wonder how long it will be until I send another of my 'poor poor me' messages?)
All my love to my brothers,
"You live it or lie it" Metallica