It could also be 'acting out' behaviour as well - alongside the alcohol blackout.
As Survivors of CSA we often go on to having a very distorted view of sex, and seperate out some, or all, sex acts from love and affection.
We re-enact the secx we experienced as a child on what we think are our terms as an adult.
I acted out sexually with strange men, but there was never anything emotional about it at all, we barely spoke.
It was a seperate thing to the love I feel for my wife, that was never in question.
I did it for a variety of reasons that I've discovered through therapy, and a major one was my need to feel degraded through sexual acts. Which I achieved when I acted out. The need for degradation came from feeling worthless as an adult and remembering that as a boy I had been wanted, and praised, for sex.
Acting out can take many forms, and a lot of sorting out. But it can be sorted out, I've done it.
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