I have same kind problem. I feel so much negative to myself. I still even feel to blame some, for some of this sh*t that happen to me. Would I ever think you to blame for your abuse? Or Dick, Jane or Spot? No, of course not. So what make it different for me? The way I think of myself.
I have actually tried it few times, to 'talk' to myself as I would a friend. And I sense a difference, not just in words or how I say things, but even in 'tone of voice' in my head. But then I feel foolish talking to myself as such. Maybe I should try it again. Maybe it would help others to try it also, to treat ourself as a friend.
Avatar photo in memory of my younger brother Makar.
"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."~~~Martin Luther King Jr., 1963