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#124768 - 10/17/05 05:38 PM Mondays
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It's Monday morning where I am, and I'm a mess. Monday mornings are like hell; the beginning of a five-day period that coule result in any number of embarrassing, anxiety-producing, painful events.

Does this resonate for anyone else?

Oh yeah, to top it all off, I'm trying to find a job in the midst of this recovery. I can't tell whether having all this down time is good or bad.

Thanks.

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#124769 - 10/18/05 01:23 AM Re: Mondays
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oi think that the downtime thing - can be a blessing - if it is used wisely grasshopper!
\:\)

and it seems like you are...! it is a hard thing for me too - at least right now - but

this is a bad moment -

not only because it is night time - and i am a lonely dude -

but because- at this time - it i am tired - and got some big question marks -

i think - well - my job for today was looking for work and taking care of the daily stuff -

- i kept communicating with the people i needed to - to tell them - how the job search was going -

to send notes about what i was doing - and likewise listened to them -

the conversations - kept me going in that i learned more -

right now is a bummer moment -

but i think it will change -

i am energized to really go for the stuff
i am interested in -

in fact that was the kicker -

i have been given praise lately
and it is overwhelming -

my mind is blank with possibility - for a little bit but somewhere i know - that i have a repetoire of what i do and enjoy-

roadrunner said - there is not perfect job!

well said -

i don't like everything about me - in fact - i saw some 'shit' about me
tonight that makes me
kind of \:\(
it does make me know - wonder - down -

but again -
heck - tomorrow is another day -

i can't wait for that
'fiddle dee moment again' \:\)

mark

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#124770 - 10/18/05 02:54 AM Re: Mondays
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"My mind is blank with possibility." I know how that feels. When people ask me what kind of job I'm looking for, I honestly tell them "I don't know." Let's see, the perfect job would be:

1. Something that allowed me appropriate time for recovery.

2. Helping people.

3. Enough to pay the bills.

Keep me up to date about your job search, and I'll do the same for you. I'm sure you'll be a wonderful addition to your next employer.

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#124771 - 10/18/05 06:10 AM Re: Mondays
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thanks Authenticus Maximus!

cool - maybe you can work a couple jobs?

maybe there is something for your intellectual interests
and then a few days a month work at like a foundation or a charity - perhaps in paid
capacity - so that you can help and learn too - from hearing different perspectives?

i want to have some kind of academice nature to what i do -

and also i like - some business element to it also
whether it be like projects -

or something -

m

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#124772 - 10/18/05 06:20 AM Re: Mondays
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i know you didn't ask for this but

i like volunteering

..but with nice people -

'kids anger' i can always deal with -
that's why working at the orphanage was
cool - i dont' care if they say fuck you -
i get that in some weird level -
i was told they would - but they were ok -

- and also - i helped at the special olympics- it awesome too -

when those kids showed love -
it made me fall apart -
not in front of them
- they were so outspoken and hilariously honest - u kind of choked on laughing

good people - different
but almost all benign -
when they get hurt it is tough -
cause some react big -


i served dinner to 'homeless'
in santa monica -
and that really was not so good for me -

most were pretty frightening -
and seemingly agressive - and opportunistic -

i was not happy -

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#124773 - 10/18/05 05:17 PM Re: Mondays
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MGB,

Thanks for the advice. Yes, I very much like the idea of volunteering. More than one job might work, too, except I'd like to have health insurance and that's difficult to get with two part-time gigs.

Part of me just wants the perfect job to drop out of the sky on my lap...but I know that won't happen.

I like the idea of having some connection to academia. The vibrancy of learning is appealing.

Ah! If there were just a magic wand...

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#124774 - 10/18/05 07:30 PM Re: Mondays
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Hey, Mark and AM, I just dropped by to lend my encouragement for the job searches.

If I were an employer, I'd hire you both.

I'd make certain that there'd be just enough stimulation, intellectually, and that you'd have time for personal business and volunteering.

No kidding, there is this guy, Johnson, I think his name is, and he's done incredible things like day care, right on the premises so that workers can have lunch with their kids. His company matches funds when giving occurs, and he provides perks for continuing education. And, the guy makes a profit...he's a millionaire several times over.

Anyway, I'm wishing you both, well.
Good luck and keep us posted.

David

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#124775 - 10/18/05 07:33 PM Re: Mondays
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Is he hiring? \:\)

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#124776 - 10/18/05 09:08 PM Re: Mondays
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yeah...

hehe

....that is like 'having your cake and eating it too' - doing good works with lots of important funds -
- and being able to afford - extra fun for you and your friends !! \:\)

just great - i think day care and care of kids is so important -

i think kids being taught it's safe to be them
is so important - their perspectives are
very clear and amazing - if they are just giving the space.

mark

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