I am wining and being big baby, I know. I am tired of pain. When I was being abused, I close off my feelings, did not feel the pain, did not feel nothing. Now I wish I do not feel it again. The arterites give me headache, never goig away headache, since October. Finally, the medicine and dose of medicine, it seems it starts to work some. But this week, my back have hurt. I do not know what I do to hurt my back, I just wake up on MOnday and it is hurting. But it is so much pain, it is like making me crazy. I have all these medicines, three different kind of medicines she give me for my back, and all take different times, and nothin seem working. They make me tired, and I go asleep, but when I wake up, I am hurting again. Suppose to take the pain medicine every four hours, but when it help at all, it help only for hour or hour and half. I can not be comfortable, is hard to move, is hard even to be on computer, so will need to get off it again in few minutes. Hate this. I am 19 years old, and I feel I am like 90 years old person. Tired of pain. Isn't it enough, so much mental pain we have? To have physical to, it is to much right now.
Sorry. Just in very bad mood.