Its this time of year that makes me feel the most alone. I have no one to be close to, no one I can realy be myself around. I know I shouldnt think like this but I feel like Ill be alone forever. just the other day I was talking to this girl, and when our eyes met, she looked away real quick and then said she had to go. This seems to happen alot. are they seeing the pain I cant get rid of. are they seeing a victam and fleeing becaus of that. Or do they see a person who looks 21 but is realy 65. I feel so old on the inside. I dont know what to do. Id love to be with someone for new years, but it seems that my eyes are scaring them off. I just cant seem to love myself enough to pull it off. all I want is to feel loved if just for a little while. is that so much to ask?

I share the exact same sentiments my friend. I'm sorry that I can't snap my fingers and make it happen for you. I can't find anyone either.