Has anyone out there gone through a physical transformation as a result of dealing with their SA? In the past week I had an insight during a counseling session in which my counselor was mentioning things that people use as insulators from the outside world (due to SA, or other traumas). Body fat came up as one, and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Since the first time my SA came to light (ten years ago), was almost immediately buried again, and then resurfaced in the past few months, I have put on nearly 70 pounds. I have gone from an athletic and reasonably attractive guy to someone I was genuinely sorry to face in the mirror on New Years Day.
I have a wonderful wife, who aside from being understanding and compassionate, is physically beautiful, and I feel terrible to be the fat dude married to the hot chick. She deserves better, I think. Heck, I deserve better. I don't want to die early!
Has anyone gone through this? Has anyone overcome the need for an insulator? I really, REALLY hope so.
Rock on, brethren.
"Looking good, Billy Ray!"
"Feeling good, Lewis!"