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#11019 - 01/15/04 04:09 AM sick
markgreyblue Offline
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Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
y am not douing too well

i think i started to know something was up with the last post

i think my mind is imbalanced cause of issues and past???

it's like there is too much demand from my head for my body to deliver and so the breathing is
labored and i can't move-
very dark-

i called my pysch. he told me i could take another pill - for some reason this connection and the option making me feel a little better -

still pretty bad though - legs are all stiff and
unstable -

anyway talk to you later

i used to be physically very capable too - it's weird - but it will pass just another bad one

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#11020 - 01/15/04 11:41 AM Re: sick
Mike Church Offline
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Registered: 01/23/03
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Loc: Toronto, Canada
MGB like you said it will pass. We do have our moments and that unfortunately is the truth. But as long as we move forward we will be ok. Hope you are feeling better today.

Is the unstableness as a result of the medication or is it something you should talk to a doctor about.

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#11021 - 01/15/04 11:57 AM Re: sick
Brayton Offline
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Loc: Minneapolis
This sounds like symptoms of a panic attack, doesn't it? I guess this is to be expected when you have experienced the trauma of CSA. I used to get them a lot and it was really scary. I think it was the loss of control over my own body that especially scared me.

I agree that it is a good idea to check to make sure the medication is still working for you in the way you want it to. I am on meds for anxiety.
I check in every couple of months to review how my meds are working and sooner if it seems any one of them is wearing out.

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#11022 - 01/15/04 02:40 PM Re: sick
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Registered: 06/29/03
Posts: 1983
Loc: Flint, Michigan
Mark,

It does sound like a panic attack,

Remember to breathe, slow deep breaths. Reassure yourself you will get through this. And do something you enjoy that will get your mind off this.

Take care,
Bill

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#11023 - 01/15/04 05:29 PM Re: sick
Leosha Offline
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Mark,

I'm sorry that you are feeling so ill and bad. I have panic bad sometime, and it is still hard to get used to it, to tell myself it is not 'now', not 'real', because it feels so dam real. I wish I have some good advice to give you, all I know is it is very hard. And been feeling sick for weeks now, so that doesn't help to. I hope that you are feeling better at this point. Please take good care of yourself.

leosha

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#11024 - 01/15/04 06:03 PM Re: sick
markgreyblue Offline
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i spoke to my doc last night and
he sugested i take an extra pill - it was
helpful and a relief to know that -

it did the trick - today - this morning was very cynical in fact the lady who took my blood at the
laboratory for basic blood tests - told me i should speak to a t - i will and am i told her-

in fact after much thought and action - i thought about bill's comments in my recent post and last night reiterated - i am the commander of my life -

i realized that despite any relationship i have -
i must not get lost in it or if i do remember that i have my dreams and goals that i want to achieve - if something about what i am doing right then is making me sick and not really about the goal or furthering the relationship or satisfying us both - rather that one over the other unfairly and abusively - then i need to refocus speak up and think about how to dialogue about it -

doing much better thanks for your support guys -

xo mgb - talk to you all soon i hope!

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#11025 - 01/15/04 06:32 PM Re: sick
FlyWM Offline
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Registered: 09/14/03
Posts: 322
Loc: Michigan
I am glad the extra pill helped, and I am glad you are doing better. You are the commander of your life, you only, not anyone else, and in the end you have to live with yourself, so do what you think is right and what you need to do to be ok. You need to come first before anything else. I hope you continue to become better and better.

scott

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#11026 - 01/15/04 07:08 PM Re: sick
markgreyblue Offline
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Registered: 12/19/03
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thanks flywm thanks for the suppot it means a lot.

i am the commander of my life and it as you said is important never to forget that -

markgreyblue

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#11027 - 01/18/04 05:56 PM Re: sick
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Registered: 02/12/03
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Markgreyblue - Commander!! That's what it takes to move on!! To check with your Docs and support system (outward checks) and to take control of your stress/anxiety: control your thoughts, control your breathing, control yourself by slowing everything down/time out...take command!! You are the commander!! Great thought!!

Howard

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